IT'S SPRING or at lease I want it to be

Is it just me, or does it seem like once Christmas is over it should officially be spring.
I am longing for spring so bad right now. It is killing me!

Years ago when Emer was 2 we were in the car driving Samantha to school (kindergarten to be exact) and Emer started to cry. I asked her what was wrong and she said "momma, why are the flowers dead?" Okay.. she was 2.. Why was she asking me such a grownup question? It was heart breaking really. Then I told her that the flowers and trees and all kinds of other things needed to go away for the winter so that when spring came back they would be like new and they would be so pretty.. She still wasn't convinced that they would ever come back. So I told Johanna about Emer and her sadness and she (Johanna) got Emer this really cute book. Titled IT'S SPRING! What a great book. It is a precious moments book that has pop ups and everything. To this day we read it and we are always so excited to see spring coming back into our lives!

I think the main reason that I am really looking forward to spring this year is we got a camping trailer! YES we did it. It is not new unless you think 1971 is new.. HAHA... It is in really good shape and we are so excited to have it for all of our adventures we are going to have this spring, summer and fall and maybe even the winter because the furnace in it ROCKS!
I am looking forward to going to the 240 and building our house and I am looking forward to the Murphy reunion and having a trailer that we can all sleep in. But most of all, I am looking forward to being with my kids in the warmth and just enjoying life!

I didn't quit my job! I realized that I was being a complete pansy!

To feel like Crap, or to not feel like Crap

Quickly! I am SOOOO over my job! Well the job itself is great.. But why is it that the personnel (boss people) have to be rude and unkind and just overall mean???
Question? Am I that person that you feel you have to just be rude to? Do I look like the kind of person that can take it? Because guess what, I CAN'T! I am that person who will flip out! REALLY, I will FLIP!
As if today the Crazy didn't come on full force then I have to deal with the rudeness! SERIOUSLY!!!!!!! (imagine Izzy Stevens from Greys Anatomy saying it!)
So, tomorrow I am going to quit my job! (that is if I can even muster the courage) Because I can't handle the stress.. I am 32 freaking years old, and I am not looking forward to having a heart attack at 35 due to stress related anxiety!

blur, zoom, snap, thawck!

This last year has been a BLUR. Helam is 1, ONE! Can you believe it? How did this year just zoom on by without telling me?
Since Helam has joined our family, I have learned so much about being a mom. I really should have learned before with all of the other children, but I think that Helam has taught me more about being a Momma! He has taught me patience, understanding, love, forgiveness, and so much more! The joy that he has brought to our family is immeasurable! What would I do without him?
I can remember being in labor with him. Just wanting to see him and hold him and comfort him. I knew he was ready to be out in the world weeks before he came. I could just feel his sweet spirit close to me. His labor was hard! Harder and longer than any of my others. But when he was finally born, I felt complete! Like he was the main reason I was sent on this earth. Because of those feelings, I felt like I was a horrible mom before he came. But since his arrival into our family, I have learned more about how to love and care for my other children! I have had to forgive myself for my faults as a mom and I have learned how to cope with having the burdens of my past in front of me all of the time. I guess that since Helam has been with us, I have had time to reflect on my life and I have learned that I am in control! I KNOW, weird realization! The only thing that matters on this earth, is my Family, and how I help them all reach our one common goal. Returning to our Father in Heaven and doing so with honor!
I am truly blessed to be a mother to such amazing kids! I have the most beautiful princesses and the bravest warriors!
Happy Birthday New Baby! I love you with all of my being!

Helams 1st Birthday from Angie Murphy on Vimeo.

Your probably wondering about the song choice, and let me just tell you that there is nothing better in this world than Josh Groban. Well there are lots of things better, but he does have an amazing voice, and I just know that when Helam comes into his own with singing, he will sound just like Groban, if not better!!!

New Year, NEW ME!

This is MY year! NO JOKE!

After I had my cute little Helam (who by the way turns a year this week) I did alot of soul searching. I had complications after I had him and at one point, I thought that I was dying! As a matter of fact, I thought that I was going to die twice! The day I had him and about 6 weeks later. Long story.. Really really LONG!

So during that time, I made myself a promise.. I promised myself that I would become fit and active and I made a goal for myself to train for the Iron Man! I KNOW, RIGHT! What was I thinking? But, I am going to do it! So today I started my training! For Christmas my Mom got me an EA Active for my Wii. Today was my first day of use, and I LOVED IT! I did a 30 minute workout and my body feels great! Not only my body, but my mind and my soul! I know I have a long way to go on my training for the Iron Man, but this is the start! This spring I will start running every morning and maybe evening.

I guess I want to be that Mom who can run with her kids and be healthy and really participate in their growth, and not be that Mom who just sits on the sidelines and watches. I am proud of myself for finding the motivation this morning to do my work out! I am doing a 30 day challenge and then after that I will bump the 30 day challenge to the Expert workout (because I am on Medium now) so that will be 60 days of butt kicking!

Here goes nothing!!! WAHOO!!!

Today: Weight 153 pounds...