My personal hell

I have been debating on whether or not to blog about this, and well I have decided that because I don't write in my journal like I should then I need to blog so I have a record of this!

When I was 23 I had this boyfriend. I really liked him alot. And at the time I thought that I "loved" him. Come to find out, YEAH not so much! Anyways, he was a carrier of cold sores. No biggie. At least I thought!

At about 24 after we had broken up I started to get these little sores in my mouth. I thought they were cankers. The next week I had them all over my gums, inside of my cheeks and all over my tongue. YIKES! These hurt like HELL! And during that time in my life I am sure I used far worse words then hell... After about two weeks of gargling with lidocane and doing everything I could to get them to calm down, they left. And I was left with the dreaded cold sore..

El already had cold sores when we were married and I so I thought good, I won't pass them onto him. Then I had Emer and she to this day hasn't gotten them! (lets hope that sticks!) Then when Korban was about 3 months old, he got a huge outbreak. But because he was so young, he was really easy to deal with and they went away pretty quickly. The unfortunate side of his, is he gets them all of the time now. And Gannon hasn't gotten them yet.

This brings me to present day. Helam has a full blown (even worse than mine) case of them. He has them on his lips, tongue, gums and inside of his cheeks. I noticed something weird on Saturday morning when he was screaming at me. Because the screaming wasn't ending I knew something was wrong so I took him into the doctor. She confirmed my worse fears. He has an outbreak. She told me it would be about a week til he started to feel better and anther week for them to go away.

Sleep isn't Helams friend with these and hence I am in my own personal hell! I feel so guilty for being the cause of this.. (why did I ever kiss that boy?) Now he will have to bear this burden for the rest of his life, like Korban will have to. I try so hard to make sure that when Korban or I have one that we steer clear of the other kids, but what can you do?

I am praying that Helam will start to feel better soon. That his eating and drinking will get back to normal and that we will be sleeping and he will be a happy boys soon!

flying....

How is it already May 1st? It seems like yesterday I was cursing winter and ready to move to Florida.. O WAIT!, it still is winter... BLAH and BLUK!

I have so much to catch up on it isn't funny... The thing about blogging is, if you don't do it everyday or each day an event happens then it is sooo hard.. Needless to say, I am feeling so overwhelmed!

First, Gannon had his birthday. It was a great day for him.. His birthday fell on a Sunday and it was so cute in closing exercises because they called his name to have him go up to be sung to and he was so excited.. He jumped up and down shouting "it's my birthday! it's my birthday!" We had a fun little BBQ with my side of the family.

I think that Gannon had a great 4th Birthday! He is really into LEGO anything. So he got some LEGO Ben10 toys and he also got a LEGO Prince of Persia set. I think that was his favorite. He also got clothes. I'm not sure he liked them very much, because he kept trying to give them to my nephew Breck...

On Wednesday April 28th Morgan and Kylah had a field trip to Antelope Island. We were all praying for good weather. The morning of it was a blizzard. I was not looking forward to the field trip in the snow, but I am so very glad that I went! The weather on the Island was perfect, well except for the crazy wind. But other than that you really couldn't ask for anything better. The sun was shining and it was warm. Well warmer than SLC..

Me and my girls!

It was so windy when I took this picture.. Can you tell?

I love this picture! Isn't it so cool!

It was a fun trip and I am glad I went! I had never been to Antelope Island before and I really enjoyed it! If you haven't made the trip, do! They have a tun of buffalo and antelope on the island and best of all, it didn't stink like you expect the Great Salt Lake to stink!

I really have more to say, but can't at the moment because the baby is fussing.. He isn't feeling to well.. SO, hopefully I will be able to update tomorrow!

4 years old!

Yesterday was Gannon's 4th birthday. How is my baby zoolander getting so old so fast? I don't like it!!!
I have a big birthday post that I am working on, but I really don't seem to have the time to blog that much....
So, this is just a shout out! Happy Birthday big boy! I love love love ya!

Muddy Mudd Mud

The last couple of days the sun has been shinning and I have even gotten a bit of my first tan of the season..

Korban and Gannon have also gotten dark!

At least it wasn't poop!

I'm gonna get all "churchy"

Today marked the first day of general conference weekend. I always like general conference weekend. As someone in my ward last week said, what could be better than "pajama church?" I laughed. Along with many others.
Not only do I like Pajama Church, but I love being able to sit and listen with my family. Last Sunday Morgan, Kylah and Emer (along with the boys) received a bingo card of words to mark off when someone who was giving a talk mentioned. It was fun. But man on man does Emer get competitive! She was getting so angry because her sisters had more words marked off than her! How dare they!!!
I didn’t get to listen to all of the messages from today’s sessions. I had to run to the store and get things ready for Easter and well then I had to go to work! BLAH.. (by the way only 2 more Saturdays left. WAHOO) But the messages I did hear, were all inspiring! Every conference, I truly feel that the talks that are given are just for me.. Today was no exception! I loved the talks that were directed to the Mothers! I feel so uplifted. I am so truly blessed to be a mother. I am also so blessed that I belong to a church who fully supports mothers and their divine callings on this earth. I am also so blessed that I am married to a man who wants me to be a full time mother! El supports me in all that I want to do. He never tries to talk me out of whatever ideas come into my head. He lends a hand when needed and he fully appreciates my strengths. At times I don’t think I have any strengths, but El is always quick to remind me of them. For that I am grateful.
I also just wanted to say how blessed I am to have an Eternal Companion who holds the Priesthood. What a true blessing it is to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and to know of the truthfulness of the Gospel and to have the Priesthood Keys restored. About 3 weeks ago I came into work and the girl who was here before me told me that a patient was requesting a blessing. The Elder who comes on the weekends had already been and so we didn’t have anyone coming. I told her I would take care of it. I called El and he was right here. He went down and did the blessing and felt the Spirit so strongly. I normally wouldn’t have called El, but he had just dropped me off and so he wasn’t far. He was happy to do it! Today when I came into work, I got a call from one of the floors about a patient who needed a blessing, so I did an overhead page. About five minutes later the floor called me and let me know that one of the hospital employee’s had run up to do it! What an amazing gift we have. As the girls sing "Priesthood power"!
To be a part of something so amazing is the greatest gift of all! I truly have a testimony of the restoration. I am so grateful to Joseph Smith and his courage! I am also so grateful to my Savior, Jesus Christ! He is an amazing man, and my hope in this life is to live worthily so I can return to Him and my Heavenly Father with Honor.