Daddies...

Here is to all of the daddies out there.. I know that I have had my fair share of them. I am blessed to have a Dad who loves me and my kids, a Grandpa who loved me so much and it is sad that I don't remember much about him, and a Grandpa who married my Grandma and has been a true hero to me.Here is my dad with 5 of the 7.. Who knows where Samantha and Emer are, but I'm glad I have this picture... My Dad is so funny with kids. He just loves them to death!
This is my Grandpa Roy. He passed away when I was 3 years old. I don't remember much about him, but I do remember sitting in my highchair and he would read me the funnies.. He would also play his ukulele and sing to me... I can't wait to be able to sit with him and talk about all that I want to know...

This is my Gramps! He is my hero!!! I love him so much! He has been my daddy when I didn't have one. He is such a special person who has such great love in his heart.. I am so grateful that he married my Grams... I can't imagine my life without him!

And to my sweet husband! He is the greatest dad... He took on my 3 as his own. They are just as much his as the other 4.. Who in the world besides my gramps would do that??? I love him dearly....

Changes... Have I already used this title?

Where to begin... I'm not even sure I want to write this post. Blogging just doesn't seem a top priority..
RECAP: El and I had our 8th anniversary. It has been an amazing 8 years. I don't have any of our wedding pictures scanned in, but I will do that one day. This is what is sad,this is the most recent picture of El and I together, and it was taken September 2009. At least I didn't post in one from 04... That is what happens when you have a million kids and you or your husband are the ones taking all of the pictures..

The kids had their last day of school on June 4th. They were all glad to be done so they could start their summer vacation. But it really hasn't seemed like summer. The weather has been yucky..
We just got home from a camping trip with my Mom and family and it rained the entire time. YUCK.. So, I didn't take any pictures. Mostly because I was lazy... SHOCKER!!!!!!!! We took our travel trailer out for its maiden voyage. It was great.. There is nothing like being hunkered down in your camping trailer while the rain in pouring. And the best part, we have a furnace so I stayed warm!

Onto the changes.. Our house is due to be finally sold in this next week. That is a huge relief. We are so ready to be all moved out of there and not have to deal with the stress of our house selling.. :)
*quick story* In December of last year, I told El that I had a really strong feeling that he was going to be laid off from his job. Well nothing happened, and he probed around and he didn't hear of any layoffs so it was all good. Then in March, he got a call from his boss about how their company is doing a re-organization. So, El and I went to the temple and we were reassured that whatever happens, happens and to just be prepared. So that is what we have been doing. We have been preparing. Last week he got the news that he is going to be laid off and that this Friday is going to be his last day. WE are not worried! So please don't be concerned for us. We have a plan and we are going with it. (more on that to come later)
I just wanted to put it down that I am so grateful for a Heavenly Father who loves me and my family so much.. We are truly blessed and we know that as long as we do what we are supposed to do, he will take care of us...

Once there was a snowman, snowman, snowman...

ME: (look out the window) SSSSCCCRREEAAAAMMMM!

EL: What the heck woman!

ME: IT'S SNOOOOWWWWINNNNGGGG!!!

EL: SO.

ME: ALOT!

EL: let me see.... O MAN!

ME: will you go take pictures? Please??

EL: alright woman!

Doesn't he take great pictures???

Thank you honey! I love you!

In just 8 days...

I will be a full time mother of 7 again.. School is out in 8 days and for the first time in a long time I am not dreading being a full time momma... Don't get me wrong, I am always a full time mom, but not of 7 because 4 of the kids are in school from 9-3:45. So I am only with the boys a majority of the day and then the kids get home do their homework, eat and then it is usually bed time.. And I used to dread the kids being out of school. But not this year!
We will be out camping so much this summer and enjoying life together and I am over the moon about it! I can't wait to just sit with the kids around a campfire and sing songs and read scriptures. To hear about their adventures. It is just going to be awesome!

Helam is feeling better thank goodness. I was really starting to wonder if I was going to survive and I'm not the one in pain. The last week has been a real challenge for me. It breaks my heart that he has been so sick and really I just wanted to crawl in a hole.. Luckily he is doing better, and is doing better each day. (as I write this, I hear him crying upstairs.. uuuugggghhhh)

On Wednesday of this week I took Samantha in for her Jr. High school check up. FIRST OFF let me just say that I feel OLD! How in the world do I have a child that is going to be in Jr. High? That is just crazy to me..
She is growing like a weed.. She weighs 93.8 pounds.. (she is really going to kill me for writing this) and is 5 ft 3 inches tall. That is only 3 inches shorter than me!?! WHAT THE CRAP? I knew I was going to be a short mom.... Our Dr. said that she is right on mark and looks really good.. So that is good to hear. It is funny to take Samantha to the DR because I am not used to having to deal with the big kid stuff at the docs.. I am a pro when it comes to taking the little ones, but MAN o MAN taking tweens is uncharted territory for me. :)

This is life! Crazy, eventful, scary and most of all a blessing! Now I am off to change a poopy diaper and listen to the boys fight over who is going to be Indiana Jones... dun, dun, duuunnn!

My personal hell

I have been debating on whether or not to blog about this, and well I have decided that because I don't write in my journal like I should then I need to blog so I have a record of this!

When I was 23 I had this boyfriend. I really liked him alot. And at the time I thought that I "loved" him. Come to find out, YEAH not so much! Anyways, he was a carrier of cold sores. No biggie. At least I thought!

At about 24 after we had broken up I started to get these little sores in my mouth. I thought they were cankers. The next week I had them all over my gums, inside of my cheeks and all over my tongue. YIKES! These hurt like HELL! And during that time in my life I am sure I used far worse words then hell... After about two weeks of gargling with lidocane and doing everything I could to get them to calm down, they left. And I was left with the dreaded cold sore..

El already had cold sores when we were married and I so I thought good, I won't pass them onto him. Then I had Emer and she to this day hasn't gotten them! (lets hope that sticks!) Then when Korban was about 3 months old, he got a huge outbreak. But because he was so young, he was really easy to deal with and they went away pretty quickly. The unfortunate side of his, is he gets them all of the time now. And Gannon hasn't gotten them yet.

This brings me to present day. Helam has a full blown (even worse than mine) case of them. He has them on his lips, tongue, gums and inside of his cheeks. I noticed something weird on Saturday morning when he was screaming at me. Because the screaming wasn't ending I knew something was wrong so I took him into the doctor. She confirmed my worse fears. He has an outbreak. She told me it would be about a week til he started to feel better and anther week for them to go away.

Sleep isn't Helams friend with these and hence I am in my own personal hell! I feel so guilty for being the cause of this.. (why did I ever kiss that boy?) Now he will have to bear this burden for the rest of his life, like Korban will have to. I try so hard to make sure that when Korban or I have one that we steer clear of the other kids, but what can you do?

I am praying that Helam will start to feel better soon. That his eating and drinking will get back to normal and that we will be sleeping and he will be a happy boys soon!