Here is El with Helam. It was El's first feed with the baby.. I was worried a couple of nights ago that Helam wasn't getting enough to eat, so I pumped to see how much milk I was producing and decided that El should have a go at feeding the baby.. El hasn't bottle fed a baby since Emer, so this was a fun thing for him. He used to love waking up in the middle of the night and feeding her, so he got another taste of it.. How fun for him. And what an amazing daddy he is!
I just had to post this picture of Korban.. What a silly guy he is.. I was worried that he would take having Helam here really hard, but he is actually doing really good. He is by far my most sensitive child, but all of a sudden he is really growing up and doing all he can to be a big brother.. He is awesome...
Now onto my title.. I would just like to say that I sometimes amaze myself because... Today I was able to get up and get showered and go to a program at my girls school (thanks Grandma for watching the boys and Emer) and then come home and get all the boys and Emer ready to take Emer to school.. I know that sounds like the silliest thing, but as I pulled back into my driveway after taking Emer I thought to myself, WOW.. I did it.. You must realize that I do it all the time.. But today it dawned on me that I did it.. All by myself.. I was so afraid after having Helam that I wouldn't be able to do anything.. Mostly because I really didn't remember what it was like to have a new baby.. but, because I (in reality) am a pansy! I am afraid of so many things.. And I was afraid of having to do all of this mothering.. Doesn't that sound stupid? But today, I did it.. And with that I amaze myself!